I have been living on the surface for such a long time.  It made me feel safer I think.  After all, fear is not so easily noticed at the bottom of the ocean.  And this ocean inside of me is starting to churn; the tides are changing.  I'm not sure what to do.  I'm not sure what is right.

I am seeing things in me that I hate.   It is hard to love myself much less believe in the love that someone else has for me.  I am returning to the place of my brokeness so long ago.  And the brokeness that I covered up is about to be revealed again.

God, lead me to the truth.  Lead me to freedom.  Let the healing begin.