Thankful

I feel the incessant need to cover my mouth lately and not let too many words come out.  Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.  I have been afraid, worried, untrusting, indignant...and my words have proved this true.

Thankfulness was the word that came to mind tonight.  I must be thankful.  I need to look for the littlest things and just be thankful.  Thankful despite disappointment.  Thankful when I still feel great need.  Thankful when I would rather crawl under the covers and hide away.  Thankful when it does not go my way.

I am thankful

for the green of spring along with the rain

the breeze through my classroom when the a/c is down

for the way he loves me and keeps loving me

for the smiles of my students, their hugs, their willingness to try new things

for the money to pay for food and gas

for a car that takes me there and back

for a family that keeps moving forward

for the opportunity every day to start again.