I went to school in order to get a good job. I needed that job in order live a life. And now that I am working, my life is full of time constraints, feelings of guilt for not getting it all done, long hours, etc.
I am passionate about children, but how much of my day is spent being passionate about them? I get caught up in paperwork, meetings, and curriculum and there is a very small thought, deep down on the inside, that continues to ask, "but what is truly important?"
I watched some videos and read some excerpts from www.bornalivetruth.org tonight. I was appalled. I was reminded that all is not as it should be. I have listened to a close friend struggle through abuse and abandonment, and I know, that all is not as it should be. I hear about little girls all over the world being passed around as a commodity for sex. I want to do something about it. I want girls and women to know that they have a choice....they have hope...that there is more than what they see right now. I want them to know the love of God.
I am tired of being tired and worn out from chasing after some sense of daily accomplishment. I am tired of not having priorities straight and missing out on the joys of life. I am tired of only hearing but not walking out the word of God that I know is in my heart to live.
If I could do anything in this 29th year of my life, it would be this...to truly listen to what's important to the Lord, to really know Him above all else, and then to run with Him, to run and not grow weary, to walk and not faint, to rise up with wings like eagles as it says in Isaiah and to share this strength with those the Lord places in my life. I want to bless His heart. I want to see change. I want to walk in love. Order my steps in this new season, Lord. Help me to find your joy.